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26/7
Our house is in transition from electrical power to mountain heat
Our radiators are taken away, our wardrobes are almost empted
and all things are still out in the rooms to be sorted out
and everything seems to be in chaos
and I am longing to open Rumis book of Love´s ripening.
It is unbelievable, in this chaos my bone-marrow is burning
with Rumi-love and all of me are on fire
I have open my window and hear the wind rustle in the trees,
a little bird is singing and my neighbour is hammering
but in me it is totally peace.
It is as in the eye of the storm - total peace
Only to touch Rumis book burns my hands, although the book feels cold
The text at the end of side xxvi and in xxvii is just was I feel right now
“ I am tired of possessing various objects of love and instead seek the Love itself
by encountering that Love in “ the root of the root of the self””
This make my solarplexus and ears also burning
Rumi continue “ When the compulsive tyrannical self sees the inside beauty, I melts”
Oh, that is what is going on in my bone-marrow , my old self is melting.
It is a wonder that I can feel this melting love in the midst of all mess around me.
” It is then that we may realize that love has been seeking us all along” but we have not believed it.
“ Listen, O drop (of my tears), give yourself up without regret
and in exchange gain the Ocean”
xxix “ Rumi reveals that “ Love is the only Teacher and that the lessons of Love
are the most significant in our lives.”
27/7 morning
I am wakening this morning full of love again. This day my spine is warm, tingling and emanating love that fills my whole body. Today I read in Omrams book about physical love. “If we cannot feel physical love we cannot transmute it into Gods love. It is a blessing to feel physical love then we can transmute it into divine love (p 26-29).” Kuan Yins rosary is also full of love. Everything I read is talking about love.
During the song Oponopono I suddenly feel I can´t love all people unconditionally!! Why ???
When they don´t love me unconditionally??? I feel some restrictions in myself.
“ I love you, I´m sorry, please forgive me, thank you” !! What prevent me??
“ I make it mine, so I can forgive me” But! I am not loving all physically !!!
afternoon:
I am sitting on the floor just filling a whole in the wall after the radiator,
when all of my body is burning, esp. my heart, crown-chakra and ears. I am emanating such a divine love and I tangible feel waves of physically beams of love filling all my house and my surroundings. My love for my husband is huge and when he comes, I smile and tell him that I love him, and pour kisses upon him, heavenly kisses of divine love and he kisses me back, smiling
28/7
before morningservice:
My heart is still burning. Someone from above must love me unconditionally, or someone is sending me unconditional ruby love to make me feel the effect of sending unconditional love. Or perhaps it is Rumis, Maha Choans and Dwal Kuhls emanating of ruby love I feel or all of the participants of the Meru class. I do not know, but I am very grateful for this love.
Thank You!
After listening to 26/7 service when David talked about Peter Dunoff I feel :
Who am I, who has not such records?
Who am I thinking I am special to do something big.?
I have not prayed as a child,
I have not done remarkable things
I have not constantly giving prayers to God, to Mother Mary or other divine beings
I have not fulfilled the vows to the Masters.
What is my option to reach approval, having no good records?
I am unworthy!
What is my option to be other than dust in heaven?
Although the scripture says heaven rejoice even for the repentance of the smallest ones, even more than over those” perfect ever praying” ones!!
Am I of same worth as Peter Dunoff, Omram, Madame Blavatski, Elisabeth Claire Prophet and all Masters or am I only dust??
Although I feel this unconditional love pouring through me,
but have I earned it or is it only my own imagination??
Am I allowed to bathe in this love I have not earned?
But now I don´t care, for I am so grateful for this unearned streaming love upon me.
I thank you, I thank you, I thank You, and I will give it further to all who has not earned love. I will give this unconditional love from God freely to all humanity, to my family, to friends, to all I have ever met, to all I ´m ever going to meet, for this Love is divine and it is unending.
Thanks!
30/7
In all my life I have waited to be praised, to be clever, to be good enough to be loved.
I have thought, I have to do something to fit in, to feel love, to get love, to be loved especially from God
I have thought , that I must earn Gods love.
All my thoughts from parents, school, culture, priests and myself have blocked the flow of love from God and Now all blockage are gone and Gods love streams from above and fill my body, my aura and everything around me and around the world. It is a tender peaceful Love.
I love being me,
I love me,
I love God,
I love all
And I emanate love and mercy with Kuan Yin all over the earth
To all who suffer
To all who can´t love,
To erase all hate, bitterness, angry and revenge
Peace be still, peace be still, peace be still, and know
that I am emanating Gods Love to all.
This is not empty words as often in churches or in texts
It is waves of Love emanating from all of me,
From all of God through me
For I AM LOVE
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