Hello Anna! I'm just a fellow seeker. I don't have all the answers...but...if you asked me..I would think that having vision would help you see God Reality. So, prayers like 50.001 Perfect Vision. Or perhaps a call like 20.012 I AM Awake. It mentions the cosmic being Victory on the 9 o'clock line so maybe some calls to him might inspire your God Reality. Here are two I found 20.003 Mighty Victory's Call to Action and 20.028 Where Two or More Are Gathered in Mighty Victory's Name. There is also the Cosmic Cycles Clearance call 6.002, if you haven't found that already. They are all in the prayer book and also online. Hope that helps. Remember, God in life is all that's real!
Love to you!