Beloved Kali Darshan
David Christopher Lewis
March 13, 2015 7:48–8:28 pm MDT
Livingston Sanctuary of the Heart
Darshan with Kali on Divine Standards, How to Behold Yourself,
Crying, and Maintaining Serenity
If you have something to share on this matter of the psychology of Kali, about Kali's HeartStream, or you have a question for Kali, please feel free to come and share before a microphone. Those of you at home can text in and Boyd will read your text. Or if you'd prefer to call in on that channel, we'd be happy to hear from you.
Participant: I'd like to comment on the one on approval. I have a feeling that a lot of these standards that we encounter are just false standards of a false hierarchy that just wants us to compete with each other to be better, the best. I would guess that one of God's philosophies is “It is what it is.” So I would ask Kali, “Are there real strict standards in God's eyes? Or is he really like a papa and sits there saying, “Oh, I'm so glad that the young'uns have created a little something. They're out there doing their best; they're going to get somewhere. It is what it is. Now, I don't really crack the whip on standards.”
David: There is a stream of beingness that proceeds from the very center of the Creator that nurtures and nourishes all life. And as we understand it, the crystal cord is this same type of stream that is individualized for us as the energy that flows from our God Presence into our heart. This energy is pure and clear and clean, and then we stamp upon that energy, by our choices and our freewill experience, the imprint of what we desire to do with that energy. We have free will.
Now, if we choose to live in the stream of God's being, we will make the right choices on how to imprint that energy, which has been vouchsafed to us, with love, with the virtues of God, with caring and with an attitude of grace and gratitude. If we decide that we'd rather live outside of the stream of God's being and not have access to that energy, that's a choice. So the standard is that God is providing light, energy, for co-creativity to every son and daughter and we choose, by our free will, how we will imprint our awareness on that energy. And we will learn our lessons based on our choices. That's what life is about. We know immediately what is virtuous, righteous, divinely authenticated and authorized—if you'd like to use that term, although you may not. The standard is that whatever we choose to do, we should do it with right motive and in right livelihood and according to all those “rights” that the Buddha elucidated in his teaching on the Eightfold Path.
So as I'm seeing it through Kali's eyes, if there is a standard, we can choose the Buddha standard of the Eightfold Path as that standard. You can review what those eight models are for righteous living, if you would call it that. If we choose to follow the Lord of the World, who is really our model of perfection and the one who went before us to give us this wonderful teaching on what can be a divine life, then the Eightfold Path is a beautiful representation of what the true standards of light are. And in our movement, we embrace the Eightfold Path of the Buddha because we now are under the domain of the Buddha of the Diamond-Crystal Light here in Livingston. There are many Buddhas who have dictated and shared with us their teaching. We are a Buddhic activity in many, many ways.
When we look at things in terms of this Eightfold Path, there is not necessarily the sense that we have to conform to rules and regulations that are humanly made, that are outside of this beautiful stream of God's awareness. We can lovingly and gracefully float in this stream of beingness when we have right motive and make what we would call right choices and not necessarily authenticate what someone else desires us to do. It is a matter of being true to ourselves, true to who we feel we are as our Higher Self, our true Self, our true nature, our Buddha nature.
So if there is a model, if there is a standard, the standard for us is the Eightfold Path of the Buddha, because it was very carefully crafted by him after meditating under the bo tree for forty days and reaching that point of enlightenment where he saw clearly the stream of beingness that he could live, move and have his being within. And then there is no dissension. There is no disparity, no duality that comes into play within our mind that gives us the sense that we have to even choose right or wrong, left or right, good or bad, black or white. We don't have to choose one of two different sides. We live in the perfectionment of that beautiful one stream that is resplendently and magnificently poured forth from the heart of God in the Great Central Sun.
So when we live in that stream, there is no disparity. There's really no other option except to be love, to be clear and pure and to live by the model of the Eightfold Path. That's the answer to that question. Thank you. Anybody else?
Participant: I'd like clarify something in a particular teaching that you were speaking of that is called the Release Technique. They ask if your motives are coming from a place of needing safety.
David: Safety, okay.
Participant: Safety, control or approval. But the need for safety really is fear, so you were saying it in another way. Because it's their teaching—
David: You want to be true to that, okay.
David: Safety, control and approval. Okay.
Participant: Yeah. You get feedback from a facilitator and yourself. You do this thing until you realize where you are, where you're really coming from, the need or whatever. But I would like to ask Kali a personal question. Can I do that?
Participant: Beloved Kali, what do you see that I don't see about where I'm coming from, what need I'm coming from that has caused me to not make the progress that I probably should have been making by now?
David: Well, through Kali's eyes, I'm seeing the exceptionalism of your lifestream. And by exceptionalism I mean the perfectionment, the glory, the beauty of your soul. And what I'm seeing through her eyes is that any choice that you have made to not experience, to feel and to have validated within your own awareness how noble, beautiful, divine and wise you are is what moves you outside of that sphere of perfect beingness, which could look like fear at times, could look like seeking approval at times, could look like trying to get into the safety net, where you don't feel that you're giving your best or your all.
The encouragement offered to you from Kali is to be fierce with yourself, as she is fierce with us, and to behold yourself and accept yourself as a noble, divine, beautiful, inspiring and inspired daughter of God. And when you are fierce with yourself in holding true to that divinity within you—no matter what anyone, including your own lower nature, does to try to demean you or to put you down in any way—when you are brave enough, courageous enough to deal with that in a loving and yet powerful way and in the moment defend yourself, your true Self, then you will feel the oomph that you require to make greater progress.
This is true for many, many people. What you shared by pouring out your soul to ask for this help and understanding is true, Kali says, for probably about 77 percent of those in this movement who at times get down on themselves because they don't feel approval from others. This may have something to do with the fact that we're in a smaller community rather than a larger one. They may feel that they don't have the resources to financially live as they desire to live, or don't feel that they're living in the place where they should be living or have the job or the relationships they should have, which are all outer little things that are orbiting around the greater dynamic of the essence of who they are as divine beings. When you can behold yourself, feel who you are, defend who you are (to yourself first)—like in that movie Defending Your Life—and be true to yourself, everything else will play out appropriately and in divine order, magnificently, magically, and you will just feel happy all the time.
So the happiness that you desire, the fulfillment that you seek and the authentication of who you are in the eyes of others that you feel you truly deserve is something that you can have—first within yourself—by having the courage to defend who you are. And by defending who you are, you are defending your I AM Presence, your true Self, the real you.
How do we defend? That is the crux of the matter on a day-to-day basis. We arise early, we do our spiritual work, we're integrated, we feel good and then our day goes smoothly.
So if all of you choose to arise early and take those moments in the early morning hours to reauthenticate who you are before the altar of God and say, “I know who I AM—I AM THAT I AM—and I move through this day in the I AM Presence, in the I AM name, with majesty, with the victorious set of my jaw and with a twinkle in my eye, a smile on my face and with love in my heart,” then you are victorious.
Participant: Thank you, beloved Kali.
David: Thank you. Anyone else?
Boyd: There's one on the chat.
David: Okay, go ahead.
Boyd: “Beloved Kali, today I read about the concept of releasing protective tears. Can you please explain how to do this? Thank you.”
David: I am seeing, through Kali's eyes, two aspects of this. One is the positive tears that we release when we are protected by the aura and the majesty of our Divine Self or an ascended being or an angel, when we feel so surfeited in light and love that we cry. Those tears are tears of joy and they are a certain protection.
Then I'm seeing, on the opposite pole, that when we cry when we're not happy, when we're sad because of what someone has done to us, how they have treated us, we lower our defenses through that self-sympathy, which goes beyond the point of a reaction to something that is mean-spirited or evil. I'm talking about when we lapse into a sympathy vibration, which lowers the protection of the energy field of our aura. And therefore we have to be kind of shocked out of that to get back into our integrity by wiping those tears away, by girding ourselves up and realizing that that person cannot control us, that the situation cannot control us, that we are the arbiter and the author of our destiny, that we have free will, that we have choice and we can choose to live in our integrity and be who we are. So we wipe those tears away. The person who has wronged us, demeaned us, or whatever the situation is, has ultimately no permanent control over us, and we reclaim who we are and we build up that field of protection around ourselves and we dry those negative tears.
So I'm seeing both the positive tears and the negative tears, if you'd like to call them that. And they're both okay, because at times when we are hurt or we feel that we've been misunderstood, we may cry. I cried the other day, to give you an example of this, and I'll be frank with everyone. I have a daughter who is fourteen, and I've been trying to reach her, leaving messages on her phone, and she doesn't call me back. And so I decided I was going to start writing little cards to her and send one to her school, one to her home and send a lot of them. So I started sending little love notes and poems and things that I drew. And my wife came in my office as I had just completed one, and I consider this to be the most magnificent poem I've ever written, ever, to her. I was in the vibration of sweetness, of pouring out my love to my daughter through this poem, which I folded and was ready to put in the envelope when my wife walked in. She had been gone all day, and so I pulled it out and I read it to her. And I started crying because I realized that I felt that my daughter was not appreciating me as her father. Here's this appreciation and approval thing again, right? So I was crying these tears, and in one sense they were also tears of joy, feeling what she would feel when she read that poem about how much her dad loves her. And I said in this poem that she is the greatest co-creation of my life—more than all my music, more than all the HeartStreams I've delivered, more than all the places I've been on the Earth as I've traveled around the world. She and my other two sons are the greatest co-creations of who I am as an individual soul on Earth.
It was a poignant moment of being in this sense of the sweetness of God's love for her and for myself in that moment. And I cried and I cried for a few minutes, and my wife tried to dry my tears and yet she realized that I had to cry, that I had to release that little pent-up desire for the affection of my daughter, who lives in another town.
So for those of you who do cry, it's okay. Let your tears come out. Don't try to stanch them prematurely or to dry them before you've released whatever it is that's pent-up inside of you that has to come out. It's better that it come out, and then when you get ahold of yourself and can relax, you can assess what has transpired and move in that moment into a deep reflective beingness, of being in the presence of angels, divine masters, who do love and cherish you and who will comfort you, buoy you up, give you peace, give you presence. And their affection and love for you as a beautiful soul will carry you forward past the recriminating words of others or feeling at times that people are not appreciating you. The love of the angels for you will suffice when you take those moments of meditation and stillness to feel their presence and, if necessary, invoke the presence of the angels to be with you. We heard that Amethyst came to Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane and comforted him as he sweat great drops of blood when he was considering whether or not to go through the crucifixion. A great archeia came to him, beloved Holy Amethyst.
If Jesus required comfort, we require comfort. So cry those tears. Let them come out, and then when you've allowed the purging and the self-emptying, breathe and release. And release the anxiety, frustration, pain and sorrow, and then drink in the billowing essences of the archangels, the angels who love you so much, your divine ascended-master friends. They will encourage you. They will support you. They will be there for you. And I can attest to this because I have had the visitation of Mother Mary many, many times in my trials of feeling that I was being criticized by the leadership and many Keepers of the Flame of the church that I was a member of before The Hearts Center. It's been an intense burden on my heart and soul. When people reject you they, in effect, spit in your face and do things that they wouldn't do to just the common person on the street. Yet because they think that you're a fallen one, a psychic imposter of a messenger, blah, blah, blah, they do these things. And it does hurt.
So we do have to allow these feelings to play upon our being, yet not negatively impact us. And we allow the angels to do their alchemy to transmute the pain, the sorrow, the aftereffects of these slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. So, _______, I love you. We all love you. We welcome you as a Lady of the Flame. And whatever you may have gone through, we are here for you. And please call any time that you require a word of encouragement, love, support, whether it's from me or from someone else you know in our movement who you are friends with or know personally. Thank you for this question. Any other questions, Boyd?
Boyd: Yes. “Dearest Kali, thank you for this beautiful service. Recently beloved Himalaya encouraged us to “allow your heart to remain serene.” The daily pressures of life, of course, make this an interesting assignment. Lord Himalaya did offer a number of very good suggestions about how to do this in his HeartStream. My question for you is, do you have any tips to offer us, from your feminine perspective, on how we can maintain inner serenity and that connection with our Presence while still happily charging through our busy days? Thank you.”
David: Well, breathing and a certain regular time of focused and yet regular letting go, depressurizing, relaxing are essential to maintain serenity. The pressures of our jobs, our to-do lists and the tasks before us, whether self-imposed or imposed on us by others, are intense.
I saw a video that someone sent me of live footage of Padre Pio before he passed on, and it was really amazing. I noticed that he was really not that thrilled with being videotaped. You could tell that there was no desire on his part to be the center of attention, to be feted or focused upon or have the infatuation of others. He was a man of God who was humble, desired to pray and do the Mass, receive confessions and get back to his cell. They showed one part where everybody else was at the table ready to eat and he wasn't eating. And I think I remember reading that at one point later in life, the last part of his life, he only ate about four ounces of food a day for years and years. Anyway, that's a side issue.
Back to your question. To maintain serenity in the face of all of the daily constraints and pressures, just as Padre Pio did, requires an inner prayerfulness, which brings us back to that point of serenity. So no matter how many assignments you have or how long your to-do list is, pause in moments of mindfulness, heart-centeredness and close your eyes, breathe deeply, recenter and feel God's presence in your life, in your heart, in your auric field. And just release the pressure, the strain, the anxiety and then move on to the next thing. In some cases, you could do it in half a minute; in other cases it may take three minutes or more. Sometimes you may have to go outside, look at the sun (in the right way, of course), or take a walk if you're able to, or do something in nature to release that stress and pressure. And then when you feel serene again, come back to your work and plow through it with all of your heart and virya. I do this a lot. I have a rebounder in my house, and I like to jump on it for five or ten minutes. I like to do the dishes. Mona leaves the dishes for me, so it seems like they just keep appearing in the sink throughout the day no matter what happens. And so I'm doing dishes about four or five times a day. It's only five minutes, and yet it's a reprieve from the pressure of whatever it is I'm dealing with.
So you can find those things that release the pressure, the strain, the anxiety. And you all know what they are, whether it's reading a book, petting a cat or going for a walk. Whatever it is, make sure that you're in your Presence and that you're living from that point of serenity, because if you're doing work in a strained way, it will not turn out the best and you will not turn out the best. So what's more important than the work is you. And if you can maintain that serenity, praise God. You will get through it with a smile on your face rather than a strain and little furrows set permanently in your brow because you've been too intense. So thank you. Anybody else?
Boyd: “Could you tell us about what would be the best picture of yourself for an artist to create?”
David: A sun with your smile in the center of it. And the sun is the color that's your favorite color, and the way that the rays come out of that sun is unique, based on your perspective of who you are and the way that you like to enfold life, give birth to life through your co-creativity and how you enjoy living, in general.
So the sun is the epic, perfect image of who you truly are. And yet in the Sun, as it says in Vesta's Solar Rosary, we see the image of Vesta with the eyes. Remember that? It appears numerous times. Those eyes can be your eyes. That's the true photo or image of who you are, which you can behold in violet and in pink and in every color. So thank you.
Boyd: I think he might have meant—well it says, “What would be the best picture of yourself for an artist to create?” I thought he meant the best picture of Kali, but maybe I didn't understand it.
David: Okay, she reflected it back to him.
Boyd: Yeah, I guess so. It was a good answer either way.
David: Okay, so he's talking about Kali. Every image that's ever been created of Kali—past, present and future—that was created with love, with honor, with respect, with devotion is perfect. Kali says that she has many guises and that all of them are a part of who she is and what she looks like or how she appears to devotees who desire to represent her. There is no one best.
Try drawing your own Kali picture, __________. And it will emerge through your meditation upon her and with a view that's unique for you, which you will love because you created it; it is yours. You can first create this in your mind's eye and then you can meditate with Kali a number of times in order to have the lowering into greater subjectivity the subject of her image. And then whatever medium you use, if you choose to so portray her, whether it be pastel or watercolor, crayon, colored pencil, or whatever, it will be your image. And you will hold that as your Kali, which contains the restorative and miraculous energy that she will embody in that design because you did it. And then you can place it on your altar. You can frame it if you'd like to. Do whatever you like with it. You can make magnets out of it and put it on your refrigerator, if you have a refrigerator, and meditate on her day and night. And through that image she will perform her magic for you. So thank you.
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